fantasy

i am truly a man of dreamz and fantasies...how i wish i can live in a world of fantasies of my own...

it would be pitiful if one has no dream or fantasy.....

i always fantasise...and fantasise great things....not sumthing sexual...but juz some ambition and pleasant things...fantasise abt love...fantasise abt future...fantasise abt gers (not sexually, again i stress)...fantasise abt unexpected situationz....improbable situations...like suddenly Doom's day has come, and what would i do...fantasise , visualise, dream...

fantasies are what inspire me in life...so...some pple ask me not to think of her...but why not? thinking is the most vigorous metabolic activity for me...and it is an activity that is boundless, free, make-u-feel-good, increase ur serotonin level, and oso the levels of others natural neurotransmitters..

pple say dreams are reflections of our perceptions and thinkings during daily life...i beg to differ...my dreams consist of anything....any person can pop up in my dream....one tt i havent thought of for a few years....one tt i have nv paid attention to...these pple will appear

dreams and fantasies rox...they are like the oasis in my life...providing me with fresh supplies of energy and motivation, lubricating my inner engine....sheltering me from the constant and inevitable miseries faced in daily lives...

i rox...but i hate reality...i believe in fantasy and fairy tales...i believe that the good will always triumph oevr the evil...i believe in the fundamental goodness in men...yet i believe in teh very raw animal survival instincts of men...men , after all, belong to the animalia family...men appears as the winner of the race btw all species...yes, we have every right to kill the animals...but we are higher form of animals, we have intelligence, we have empathy, we have compassion, and we aer magnanimous...we shd be the big brothers of all species...and help them using our technology to to continue the lifeline, and avoid extinction

so...do not kill animals at free will...i juz realised tt embryos vividly have lives oso...documentaries from discovery channel shows tt all embryos do move, though limitedly...even embryos of frogs and other animals..even tadpoles...they are all lives...it really hurts me when an embryo is killed...so to hell with abortion...even the babies are unwanted, even if the gers were raped...there is absolutely no reason to abort life...we have no right to end it....it is all fate...if fate decides tt the baby shd come, let it be...maybe can give the baby to other sterile parents...

and after watching intensively discovery channels, national geog, and animal planet, i really feel that i luv science, and the beauty of science and nature simply awe me =)

it is such a... retreat, i would say...or an escape, from those textbook and lecture sciences...which really bore me...how i wish i am a freelance learner...learn watever i want at watever time...but...see...reality bites...i need to go sch, i need to get a job, i need money to survive...i want i want i want to escape from conventional textbook sciences...

and yay, anwar is being released...but can it be a set-up that govt trying to lull teh pple into thinking that the legislative system of m'sia is more democratic, which in fact is still of the same old rigid way? i wonder...when can change come? maybe it is my obligation...i heard the calling...i feel the mission...my time will come...wait for me, m'sia