unhappiness

it has been a week of unhappiness.
irresponsible bio s members. downright disappointing bio result. the realisation of my predicament. the pathetic dinner turnout (for which i missed band sectional :S). a loss of direction and momentum in life.

and now,

even angel cried


what a sad world it has become.

when i am hyper and charged-up, i think that the world is nothing short of wonder and beauty, and feel that it would be sad to leave this world so early.

now i feel that there is nothing in my life, in this world, that i can look forward to. The future might just be the culmination of the miseries and sufferings in my life. In a society where trust and love are over-rated, i feel no desire to live on.

But no i am not on my way to suicide, though losing purpose to life, i feel, is akin to living dead.


"I need to find the lighter for my cigarette of inspiration. I need to find the key for the ignition of passion. I need to find glue for the stamp of happiness."
- this quote might be crude and unpoetic, it aptly points out what i need most now.