Hi,
Would like to share with you this very romantic
Chinese article about leaf,tree & wind. The article
is in Cantonese. It's very long hor. Read it when u
got time & want to feel romantic.... I really
love the verse "Leaf departure is because of Wind
pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay". If
you fall for somebody don't pretend that it didn't
matter. Love is something that can't you can
afford to have mind games. Quickly tell your love,
you love him/her so.
Tree
===
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at
painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the
right hand corner as a trademark for all my
watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when
I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but
never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty
face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have
outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary
gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent,
like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her
intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going
after her is because I felt somebody
so ordinary like her is not a good match for me.
I'm also afraid that after we are together all the
good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's
gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she
will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up
everything just for her. The last reason, made her
accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase
after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3
years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very
demanding director.When I kissed my 2nd
girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was
embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before
running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen
like a walnut. I purposely didn't
want to think about what causes her to cry but
laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go
back home, she was alone crying in the
classroom. She didn't know that I returned from
soccer training to
get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once
when both of them quarreled. I know that based on
her character she's not the type that will start off
the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I
shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I
didn't care about her feelings and walked off with
my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke
with me like nothing has ever happened. I know
that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my
heart ache is as bad as hers. When I broke up
with my 5th
girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a
day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She
told me that coincidentally, she has something to
tell me too. I told her about my break up and
she told me about her getting together. I know
whose the guy. He has been going after her for
quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively
and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the
talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile
& congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart
ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a
heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't
breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled
down & I broke down & cry. How many times have
I seen her cry for the man that doesn't
acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was
send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I
haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure
is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree
didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
=====
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she
has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of
courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on
very
close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as
buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I
learnt a feeling I never should have learnt -
Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be
describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour
lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were
only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I
hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a
mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he
pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't
want to make the first move? Whenever he had a
new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after
time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this
is a one sided love. If he don't like me, why does
he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will
normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very
heart wrenching. I
can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings
towards me I can never figure out. You can't
expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for
him,accompany him,love him. Hoping that one
fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting
for his phone call every night, wanting him to send
me
sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will
make time for me. Because of this, I waited for
him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through &
I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder
should I
continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma
accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me
relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in
time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a
small footing
in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying
to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I
realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small
footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this
badly battered leave far away & better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't
ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of
Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to
stay
Wind
======
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so
dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A
wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it
was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw
a petite person looking at my seniors & me
playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always
be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends
looking at him. When he talks with gals there's
jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her,
there's a smile in her
eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like
she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something
amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a
kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there
as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and
saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her
eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her
usual place, looking at him. I walked over and
smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She
was surprised. She looked at me, smiled &
accept the note. The next day,
she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow
her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It
because leaf never want to leave tree.I replied her
note with this statement and slowly she started to
talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I
know that the person she loves is not me. But I
have this perseverance that one day I will make
her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my
love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she
will divert away from the topic. But I never give up.
If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use
all means to win her over. I can't remember how
many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear
a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to
me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her
over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How
come you didn't
want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my
head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm
nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up
the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and
rush to her place & press her door bell. During the
moment when she opens the door. I hugged her
tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay
